Memorial Day

Someone messaged me tonight and spelled my name but it came out as “honor”. So, in honor of that, I want to take this moment to honor all the women and men who sacrificed their lives while serving our country…

My grandmother was a young girl during WW2 and told me some amazing stories when she was running in the jungles of Saipan in the middle of the war. She told me that war is so, so horrible.

I hope that I will never have to experience war, thanks to our soldiers.

Shifting… I do battle my mind daily. Discipline and focus require a strong mind and my mind as I’ve been observing seems to be weak overall. I have bursts of a strong mind but it doesn’t last very long. All day yesterday, I told myself that I had to workout, so I ate and I ate and I sat on my butt. Then, I ate more and then I ate ice cream and at 11:30pm after seeing a post about someone’s workout list of what they’re going to do tomorrow, I was motivated to workout. So, in that moment, I did 100 pushups, 300 squats, 20 pull ups (because that’s all I can do right now), 100 Ab wheel rolls, 100 Hamstring pulls on an exercise ball (not sure what those are called). I texted 2 people what I was about to do, so that I would be accountable. About halfway through, I thought I wasn’t going to be able to finish, but I pushed myself and I finished it. I hope I will be hurting tomorrow. And then I sat down and wanted to eat more ice cream… But I didn’t.

A big part of this is self-care, self-love. I never thought of it that way until I did one of those 6 week challenges, which forced me to eat healthy and work out. I also had to eat a lot more than I am used to. In doing so, I found that I didn’t sink into depression or sadness or whatever emotional land you end up in when you don’t feed your body.